January 2010
2 posts
new tumblr
coming soon. keep your eyes open ;-)
happy new year :-)
so i lost 7 lbs, gained 4 back this morning, and i’m up and running. going for a walk w s and then off to lifetime!!!! lovelovelove last night was a great time. update later. love my fam & friends. will post some kind of new years resolution too ;-) n
December 2009
19 posts
relief
i woke up this morning! i am going to the gym! i need to stop being so whiny, complainy, jealous-y, and just be thankful. Thank you God for everything I am, was and ever will be and all the situations in my life. New years eve is a time to PARTY and reflect on things that happened this year that were amazing, and things that need to be better. Here’s to self improvement! n
sadness
im listening to coldplay and just being extremely moody. i have stretch marks. how disguisting. i haven’t even had children. (although i have been asked that in the past..) i must save myself. gosh tomorrow is new years eve and i’m tearing up literally, tears rolling down my face and on my nose and onto my keyboard. can i NEVER be the hot sister? i know jealously has shown its ugly...
great day
overall! - walk in the snowy woods with my good girl friend - shopping - bought bling, picking up dress tom - exercise sleep. going to try and get to bed and workout again in the am. yayayay ps i hate when people make me feel inferior. no one makes me feel inferior without my permission thank you. i am fabulous and you can’t stop this ((z-snap)) hahah omg and how many times have i heard...
i feel allll
lovely. workout was fun. i was right. gym = new pool of men
hot ones too
sigh still thinking about work crush booooooooo
i joined
A GYM!!!! n welcome back to your home, lifetime fitness!
crossing things off the todo list and going to the gym :-)
have a happy day
chocolate almonds
are staring at me in the face.
i ate an orange this morning. and so far 5 of the almonds. ahhhhhh to be skinny for nye!!!
alleged water fast
turned into healthy eatting woohoo. water water water water pear cup of cream of brocoli. (some crackers I HAD TO) 2 cups of pureed fresh pineapple vegetables and barley apple.
thus is the end to the day :-)
merry christmas my darlings
i had a wonderful christmas eve and day apart from some miniscule drama. christmas eve i had both sets of grandparents, as well as my favorite aunt and uncle over. we exchanged gifts and i recieved the following: - $ from my parents for a new winter coat (yay!!)
from aunt & uncle: - red moleskine year planner (yayay) not sure how i feel about the red but it will grow on me - a funky hat and...
a thought
somewhere inside me there is a skinny girl waiting to run loose.
i’m workin on it. ;-)
a revelation
was eatting a burrito bowl when decided it’s disguisting. yay. fighting this beast!
so
last night i wrote a love note to my lover. is that bad? deciding on whether or not to give it to him. i was thinking maybe just insert it into a christmas card, but really i am such a drama mama. i’m scared of the consquences too, even if they might MIGHT (with a small chance) be good. i don’t think i want anything out of this, just to let him know how i feel… i think. after...
dear e
one-twenty-five:
i am currently in a rut. and i don’t know what to do.
PLEASE BLOG AGAIN. getting concerned. xox n
dig deep.
i’m trying i really am. i’m so tired.
today i cracked
after the genetics exam i just didnt even know what was wrong with me. walked out of the exam and just started crying, all the way to circle hall, from circle to the library then from the library to my car. i was a hot mess. still kind of am. i took like a 3 hour nap and realized what the hell did i do today? i need to take care of my mental self better.
it was the 3 weeks of stress, worries of...
- theraflu - huge apple - cookie - strawberry/pineapple with mixed greens - pear - hot chocolate w/ whipped cream + 4 marshmellows &&& chocolate sauce (yes i know i got carried away) - carrot sticks - baby kinder bar - whole wheat mini bagel + strawberry cream cheese - theraflu
i sense a trend… hahaha and its only 4 pm. oh well. majority is healthy. almost done with...
i love life!!!
and life is loving me back!!!
what good fortune on such a cold, december night in the school library. i love people!
xn
check yes
time to put myself into work overload. i’ve gotten much more sloppy regarding my whole work ethic. i.e. today. i should have turned in the late hw from yesterday, let alone the one that was due today in organic but failed to turn in either. i am a bum. i want to change my ways but i know its going to take a bit of time. formulating another list to keep me on track.
the hit list - hw 8 of...
i did the unthinkable
- did not sleep now for 36 hours
- talked to crush today. face to face for like 15 minutes. it was great.
bedtime from now until forever!
n
where has the semester gone
in library, by the end of tonight..
-abstract - intro (3:49 am)
- materials & methods (typed out correctly) - results - discussion -lit cited i have until midnight. i’m being crazy and out there. but it’s going to get done. a semester of work will pay off. xn
(sidenote: after libs went to crash at lauren’s. we went to jewel and now are finishing these badboys up...
November 2009
59 posts
“do you want your ass to be the size of szaflary?”
– lmao clearly need to stop before my life gets out of hand. ps. szaflary = small mountain village in poland HAHHAHAHA where do my parents come up with these things. i know lovies just wnat to see me healthy ;-)
self improvement sunday
is here!
at the hospital, continuing to work on the paper… i think for lunch i’m going to take a 30 minute nap in my car. i’m still so tired from yday. but it was a good night in the end :-) have realized not alot of stuff can get done past like 1230 am for me. it’s better to just head to bed at that point but oh well. last night i had pushed majorly to get through the...
ultimatum
last night was terrible. i tried crying myself to sleep, then woke up and went to look at myself in the mirror realizing 30 minutes had only passed. what a horror that i saw. blotched red eyes, hair all over the place… ie the most monstrous person ever. my heart hurt. would i ever be good enough for myself? S was out at maxums again having fun with all our friends and her boyfriend, and M...
why must everyday be a struggle
good things are worth fighting for.
n
it's noon
i slept until 10 and i havent’ done anything yet. gahh for post thanksgiving lazyness. things are going to happen today.
the list. - put up 1 of the christmas trees - a few lights outside - m&m (until finished) - discussion - lit cited - begin o chem hw - buy outfit for andrzejki (i.e tomorrow) - make o.j. - pear juice - vacuum the downstairs - finish washing sinks (boys’, powder...
last night
last night i exposed my soul.. to yet another person VIA FACEBOOK CHAT
my life is out of control. i don’t want to be stuck chasing around boys. i suppose i could talk to him and smile more but i dont know. i must do things that are good for me. lost 4 lbs this morning. v. happy :-) dinner tonight.. i feel terrible. i’m at work, working/blogging/talking to my sweet older volunteer. i...
i want to
be skinny with nice toned tennis arms and a lovely flat stomach.
i.e. must be good tomorrow.
n
So....
one-twenty-five:
I got stood up tonight. I don’t even know… I’m more angry/upset with myself than anything. A) What is wrong with me? and B) WHY DO I CHOOSE THE WRONG GUYS?!?
E are you serious?!!? I’m like devistated FOR you. go do something nice for yourself. i.e. a manicure or a warm shower and sleep… love, n
its 1217 am
and i’m being adventurous. everyone in my house is sleeping and yet i am restless with ideas. i want to take the next month to turn my life around. there are many things that have recently been bothering me and i want to see if i can fix them. 30 days…
i’d like to develop a stronger sense of who i am mentally & spiritually as well as fix my physical self and get rid of (or...
about me
yes out of boredom i updated my fb column hahahah
i am a devoted shopper and hopeless romantic. i love the colour black, traveling, and languages. i’m trilangual. for this reason, and more - i talk alot. sorry. ;-) i like to meet people and chase my dreams. i’m competitive and find genuine kindness refreshing.
lololol going to bed so i get more stuff done tomorrow. going to...
i'm
- at the library - not working on genetics - daydreaming about.. - thinking about finishing the organic hw due days ago - wishing i had something to talk about with crush - wanting today to be done (along with stats and the quiz) - sneaking back home in time so S doesn’t realize her tall black uggs are missing - thinking about cutting back my thanksgiving eatting :-) - getting thirsty -...
shoutout
to anyone who reads this seriously i love you guys.
"i want to change the world, yet i sleep."
i want to change but i’m stuck in reverse.
whyohwhyohwhy
boooooo i want to be pretty again
listening to keane and showering, bed and waking up to do genetics for the majority of the day. going to tryout this crazy 7-5 thing where all you do is be productive. crazyness. this week is already so insane for me. school ends wed, working on thurs, fri off, sat & sun working and then the...
sidenote
so just tumblred “thinspiration” honestly some of the images just disturbed me. while my goal is get down to a healthy weight, i would not like to stick thin like MK Olsen for instance or any of those girls that you can see their bones protruding… nasty. even though i complain i love my curves ;-)
n
in search of sunrise
last night before i went to church i got my nails redid in essie’s madmosielle. i love the new little nail place i found right here by school. legit felt like reese witherspoon in legally blonde. true life: i love that movie with every ounce in my soul.
last night i also did the unthinkable!!! watched a movie on tv for the first time in forever. the wedding singer was on E! and i was not...
new rule
stop asking people what to do and just do what you feel.
n
it's ... sports t shirt thursday
atleast in organic… hahahahah
wait for my outfit tomorrow. sorry for trying hard to get your attn. LOVE ME LIKE ME ATLEAST BE DRAWN ENOUGH TO JUST STRIKE UP A CONVO
crushes are so hopeless. today the girl i was babysitting slapped my butt and told me i have a big bottom. GREAT hahahah found this guy on fb whose detoxing throughout the entire holiday season. i should do that as a gift to...
the mission
be a sexy bitch prior to next semester, also my birthday.
the 7’s came in today. wish i could slip them past my @ss… working on it.
so i was talking to one of my good friends m today and apparently a boy i liked ALL LAST YEAR ok not really but still had a baby crush whilest he was on soccer… asked if im not really smart?!?! omggggggg people think im intelligent!!!! so random...
The One That Never Gave Me Popcorn
my best friend cracks me up!! this made my morning.. :-)
un-sexyinthecity:
I met popcorn at a frat party, he was chill and sitting on a couch while millions of sorostitutes paraded around the beer pong table. So, me being the smooth mover that I am, I drunkenly flopped on the couch and stuck up a convo.
Turns out, he lived on south campus like I did and I joked we should walk back together....
the truth is ugly
and it really is breaking my heart.
what will i do with my life?
the list
- organic pre-lab - organic post - lab - rewrite organic notes - organic hw ***Materials & Methods: - nucleic acid extraction - gapdh pcr - electrophoresis & pcr purification - ligation - transformation - plasmid purification - dna sequencing - wrap up bioinformatics - begin research of plant - research gapdh a very scientific week ahead… what else is new?
- catch up in stats hw...
12632.) I'm online, you're online. Why won't you...
(via blogsecret)
last night
was such an eye opener. i realized all the things i had been missing after not going out for like 2 months!!! (yes i’m THAT girl.. the one you have to drag out). my beautiful sister S did some lovely makeup for me and we hung out in AB’s basement for like hours on end. It was a great time hahahah what else to expect from Polish people but electro music, dancing, gossiping… the...