so i lost 7 lbs, gained 4 back this morning, and i’m up and running. going for a walk w s and then off to lifetime!!!! lovelovelove
last night was a great time. update later. love my fam & friends. will post some kind of new years resolution too ;-)
n
i woke up this morning! i am going to the gym! i need to stop being so whiny, complainy, jealous-y, and just be thankful. Thank you God for everything I am, was and ever will be and all the situations in my life. New years eve is a time to PARTY and reflect on things that happened this year that were amazing, and things that need to be better. Here’s to self improvement!
n
im listening to coldplay and just being extremely moody. i have stretch marks. how disguisting. i haven’t even had children. (although i have been asked that in the past..) i must save myself. gosh tomorrow is new years eve and i’m tearing up literally, tears rolling down my face and on my nose and onto my keyboard. can i NEVER be the hot sister? i know jealously has shown its ugly face again, but really i don’t know i’m just ashamed.
i can’t even wear the cute heels i bought because my mom has deemed them “too tall.” yes i am 5’11. yes i DO want to wear pretty shoes. they are really cute peep toe suede toe with a knot guess heels. sure they were like 4 in tall. but still. sometimes i really wish i could wear heels. one day, i will where no one will judge and i will walk on proudly. she has come to the conclusion that ‘how will i dance with guys if im so much taller then them’ STUPID polish men for not being taller. anyway this opens up a new discussion.
i replied back saying who is really going to dance with me. i mean in all honesty, everyone’s showing up with dates and i really really really am not expecting anyone to really dance with me. oh my gosh can this statement be any more LOW SELF ESTEEM. i need to get a grip on reality, but really i want to stop being so jealous. ah i just want to be hot, ONCE. as usual i have to peace out with the phrase, ‘rock what you got…’ i’ll work it. somehow.
tomorrow evening = should be good fun. i need to pretty myself up and just get ready and be confident.. in flats. it will be okay/// okay now i need to rest my head, as 6 am workout is beckoning with m. :-) i love going to lifetime. i just feel great everytime i walk out of there.
tomorrow night i’m gonna bust it baby.
n
overall!
- walk in the snowy woods with my good girl friend
- shopping
- bought bling, picking up dress tom
- exercise
sleep. going to try and get to bed and workout again in the am. yayayay
ps i hate when people make me feel inferior. no one makes me feel inferior without my permission thank you. i am fabulous and you can’t stop this ((z-snap)) hahah omg and how many times have i heard “do u have a date for nye!?” no for the record i DO NOT. i am bringing my little brother, oh and i will have a banging time. will hot guys ask me to dance? they better. if not i will be happy to be on my cloud, observe other people, dance with friends, and get SKINNY.
goodnight. dress is purple masterpiece.
xoxoxo n
lovely. workout was fun. i was right. gym = new pool of men
hot ones too
sigh still thinking about work crush booooooooo
A GYM!!!! n welcome back to your home, lifetime fitness!
crossing things off the todo list and going to the gym :-)
have a happy day
are staring at me in the face.
i ate an orange this morning. and so far 5 of the almonds. ahhhhhh to be skinny for nye!!!
turned into healthy eatting woohoo.
water
water
water
water
pear
cup of cream of brocoli. (some crackers I HAD TO)
2 cups of pureed fresh pineapple
vegetables and barley
apple.
thus is the end to the day :-)
i had a wonderful christmas eve and day apart from some miniscule drama. christmas eve i had both sets of grandparents, as well as my favorite aunt and uncle over. we exchanged gifts and i recieved the following:
- $ from my parents for a new winter coat (yay!!)
from aunt & uncle:
- red moleskine year planner (yayay) not sure how i feel about the red but it will grow on me
- a funky hat and fur muffle from england
- the Nazarene (the size of the book is rather massive!)
- $ from my grandma
:-)
christmas day i worked, and then went to my brother’s apt, spent some time with him and his wife, and then went to my cool uncle’s house where we just partied it up with dinner and followed by dancing. sosoosos much fun. :-)
i bought my family some cool things and now i have many returns to do. today will be a good day to organize this. work has been rather busy, keeping me distracted from food. yayay. have been fasting on water since i got up this morning. might break it with a pear though and then switch to juice when i get home. luckily i didnt even gain weight! but i still need to look trim for nye. what can i say, there are men to impress.
in addition, i think today is going to be the day i sign up at lifetime. i miss swimming, and the steam room, sauna, jacuzzi, classes, and everything from there. it should be good. i think my momma is coming back with me too.
work crush is here. hahah yay let the fun continue. ;-)
n
